I’m trying to decide whether or not to make a speech at our wedding. Initially, I was all for it: partly because it seems strange to me that the groom, father of the bride and best man all get to make speeches but the bride traditionally doesn’t (don’t her thoughts count?), partly because, well, I always get the last word, and partly because it seems like it would be a nice thing to do.
As I mentioned in yesterday’s post, my fiance, Terry, had a kidney transplant last December. What I didn’t mention is that the kidney he received was donated by his brother, John – who is also our best man. So, we thought it might be nice if, after all of the men had said their bit, I get up and propose a toast to John: after all, if he hadn’t been so brave last year, we probably wouldn’t be planning a wedding right now, anyway.
There is, however, a problem. Actually, there are two. The first is that I am absolutely terrified of public speaking, and when I say "terrified" I mean "paralysed with fear at the very thought of it". This is why I’m a writer, not a speaker. I’m worried (and yes, I know how selfish this is) that if I do decide to make a speech, I’ll be dreading it so much that it will spoil the rest of the day for me, and mean that I’ll be too nervous to relax and enjoy myself.
The other reason? Well, I’m a pretty emotional person. Every time I start practising this speech of mine in my head, it makes my cry. I can only imagine how much worse it might be on the day, and I keep having this image of me standing there sobbing incoherently as all our guests look on in horror. Not, perhaps, the best way to wind up our meal.
Alcohol will help, of course, as will the thought that it would be a lovely thing to do – if I can pluck up the courage, that is. Looks like I need to get practising.
Are any other Bridalwave brides going to be making a speech?